So I'm making baby steps towards acceptance that this might actually be the real thing.
You may remember that after my ectopic, I was lucky enough to lose several pounds. As soon as I got off the hormones and got some energy the weight just melted off. As a result, I was down to an 8 and almost a 6. During my cancelled FET and subsequent surgery, I gained a few of the pounds back and ended up firmly in the 8s.
I was still in my 8s throughout the Lupron and estrogen but within a week after my transfer, I was so bloated, I had no choice but to go back to the 10s which is where I still am today. I don't need maternity clothes yet but I know I won't see those 8s for awhile. So tonight, I packed them all up. While I was at it, I packed up the 10 capris and shorts. Afterall, I'm going to need some room in the closet and dresser.
So it's a baby step...if I make a couple of these everyday, soon I will reach acceptance and can begin to get excited.