Thursday, October 21, 2010

Baby Steps

So I'm making baby steps towards acceptance that this might actually be the real thing.
You may remember that after my ectopic, I was lucky enough to lose several pounds. As soon as I got off the hormones and got some energy the weight just melted off. As a result, I was down to an 8 and almost a 6. During my cancelled FET and subsequent surgery, I gained a few of the pounds back and ended up firmly in the 8s.
I was still in my 8s throughout the Lupron and estrogen but within a week after my transfer, I was so bloated, I had no choice but to go back to the 10s which is where I still am today. I don't need maternity clothes yet but I know I won't see those 8s for awhile. So tonight, I packed them all up. While I was at it, I packed up the 10 capris and shorts. Afterall, I'm going to need some room in the closet and dresser.
So it's a baby step...if I make a couple of these everyday, soon I will reach acceptance and can begin to get excited.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010


Do you hear pomp and circumstance playing in the background??

So today was my last RE appointment. I was supposed to have my ultrasound and bloodwork this morning but Monday night I ended up having some bleeding. It wasn't much but was on my underwear and was definitely red. Becuase of the spotting they had me come in Tuesday morning for the ultrasound and get my progesterone checked again (last week it was only 10.5). The good news is the ultrasound went great. I was still measuring right on track and the hb had gone up to 145 bpm. My progesterone was the highest it's been at 16.5! The bad news is that they have no cause for the bleeding so they said just to take it easy and call if it happened again.

So this morning's appointment just consisted of hugs and congratulations. They made me promise to send pictures and bring the baby in to meet everyone. I got my medicine weaning instructions and was told that as long as I don't have any more bleeding I can lift all restrictions (lifting, sex, etc.) at 9 weeks.

I think the appointment was really good for me. I've had such a hard time accepting that this could actually happen that having my doctor, nurses, and even the receptionist congratulating me and sending me off was really a confidence booster for me. I'm hoping this is the confidence I need to tell a few more people. Thus far, have told a few close friends who have been through this with me step by step but we haven't told our parents or siblings.

So this is a huge step...crazy to think that I am just a few days away from being 8 weeks pregnant! Next first ob appointment is a week from Thursday.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Can she make us look worse??

I was scanning the headlines today when I saw one that said, "Nadya Suleman Still has 29 Frozen Embryos"
WHATTT??? I thought the whole reason she put so many in was becuase she was using up all her frozen embryos. Nope, not the case. She apparently didn't plan on some of these details coming out but that is what is happening since her doctor is having to go in front of the medical board. I guess she has never used her frozen embryos and does a fresh cycle each time.
Now I am not going to go into a moral argument here. While I personally believe in using up our embryos before doing another cycle, it is her decision BUT the more she is in the news, the more people think we are ALL like her.
In all my reading of fertility blogs, I'm not sure I have ever read of anyone having over 20 frozen embryos...most of us who are lucky enough to have frozen embryos probably have less than 5. And we don't have 14 children. Unfprtuantely though, Nadya Suleman is the current face of IVF and it is making us all look very very bad.

Sorry I just needed to vent...
Oh and don't even get me started on the transfer of 12 embryos...

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

We have a heartbeat!!

Today's ultrasound went well. Heartbeat was measuring at 118 bpm and everything looked good.
The baby is measuring at 6w 3 days which I of course freaked out about since last week the measurement was 5 w 5 days but the ultrasound tech assured me that it was fine and 1) I was still ahead of where they say I should be 6 w 2 d and 2) last week they measured the sac and this week the baby so the measurements were based on two different things.
They took my progesterone again since I had dipped a little low last week but since I didn't go in until noon they won't have those results until tomorrow.
So I go in for one more ultrasound and my exit appt. next Wednesday. They told me to go ahead and make an appointment with my OB for the week after that. Since my OB does ultrasounds on the first visit that means I will get to see this little baby the next two weeks to make sure everything is still going ok.
Can't believe we have made it this far...

4 more hours...

until our next ultrasound! And we should hopefully see a heartbeat today!!

We had an ultrasound last Wednesday and everything was looking good. They told me I should be 5 weeks 2 days, I figured I was 5 weeks 4 days but the ultrasound measured 5 weeks 5 days so either way we were ahead of the game :) According to my dating, I should be 6 weeks 4 days today. My progresterone is still borderline to where it should be so they will be checking that today and hopefully it will have gone up so we can stop the bloodwork.

Sorry I didn't update sooner but between the extreme exhaustion and Jr. not napping well, I'm not getting much computer time lately. I am starting to get some bouts of nausea, especially late in the afternoon and around dinner. This was exactly the time I had it with Jr. I'm trying to remember to eat more in the morning and at lunch to keep my stomach fuller and then it doesn't affect me as much. But then of course if I don't feel as sick, I freak out that the symptom is gone.

So, hopefully, I can stay sane the next few hours. Jr. has a class and I'm hoping to run some errands so we aren't sitting around the house watching the minutes tick by on the clock...