tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-53185490413573395472024-03-18T23:05:53.135-05:00Off to see the wizardThis is my journey down the yellow brick road of infertility...Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.comBlogger88125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-85635500937109580692012-05-11T16:55:00.002-05:002012-05-11T16:55:22.671-05:00Just checking inI have no idea if there is anyone out there reading this anymore. I know that it has been over 14 months since my last post. Life here is good!! Not only did I welcome out wonderful little boy but it has been so long we are coming up on his first birthday!!! I try to pop on here every few weeks and check up on the blogs that I follow but a) finding time to post just isn't there and b) I'm not sure what I want to write about. Something I promised myself this time around is that I'm not going to think about another baby for a long time and just enjoy the 2 that I have. I want to give my body a break and just enjoy life. I want to enjoy my baby without worrying when and if the next one will come. Last time I didn't do that, I jumped into trying to get pregnant again and missed part of babyhood. This time I know this won't be a two year struggle. We have 3 embryos left. We have made the decision that using those embryos will complete our IF journey. So we have 1 or 2 transfers depending on how well they thaw. So we can wait...probably until next summer. So for now, I'm just enjoying being a mom to two boys and not focusing on wondering if our family is complete or not. But just wanted to let anyone who might still have me in their reader know that I'm still around and I'm still reading your blogs! I might not comment but have been so excited about your good news and have mourned with you over the bad.Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-30638188289609097842011-02-23T15:52:00.002-06:002011-02-23T16:05:11.759-06:00When everyone is pulling for you...When I try to figure out where I fall on the scale of how open I am about my infertility, I figure I am somewhere in the middle. Our immediate family and close friends know exactly what we went through and then the next level of family knows that we have had some struggles but don't know the details. People of facebook may have figured things out here and there from when I have posted during fertility awareness week but in general we don't talk about it on a regular basis. As a result when we have told people we were expecting we got a super excited response from the people who knew what was going on and the other people gave us the normal "oh that's great that you are having your second child" response. <br /><br />One place I didn't expect the super excited response was my dentist's office. As any of you who have taken some of these hormones know...they can really mess up your gums...just like pregnancy does. So over the past couple years, my fertility struggles have been discussed with the dentist and a couple of the dental hygenests both in regards to updating my current medications as well as how it was affecting my dental health. About 18 months ago, it came up because the Clomid had been brutal to my gums, 12 months ago we were in the middle of our IVF cycle and 6 months ago, I had just finished my surgery and was preparing for our FET. So since they know all this information, they were all super congratulatory when I walked into the office visibly pregnant yesterday. I don't consider these people friends...I only see them twice a year. I have in no way developed the kind of relationship with them that I have with nurses at my RE or OBs office and hald the time I can't remember their names and yet it was so obvious how much they cared. I never realized how much they cared while I was struggling but now I realize that my support circle was even bigger than I could have imagined.Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-60473595400838261692011-02-14T07:50:00.002-06:002011-02-14T07:50:00.442-06:00Are you a mommy??3 posts in less than a week...this is unheard of!!<br /><br />Jr. is currently at a stage where he is trying to figure out "types" of people. He puts everyone into 3 categories...babies, big boy/girl, and mommies/daddies. Yesterday, we had a business associate drop some paperwork off at our house. I do not know this woman on a personal level and the only things I know about her personal life I learned from spying on facebook. She is probably in her mid-forties, married, no kids but a few dogs. Anyway, when she dropped this paperwork off, she was talking to Jr. since she hadn't seen him in a couple of years. He started asking her if she was a mommy. I went into panic infertile mode. Like I said, I don't know anything about this woman except that she doesn't have kids. My gut would tell me that that is a life choice but I really have no idea...she could have struggled with fertility and now is childless. And of course here I am..5 months pregnant and my 3 year old is asking if she is a mommy. He didn't really mean do you have kids...he just meant you aren't a baby and you seem older than a big girl...so you must be a mommy.<br /><br />She never answered the question...she may have not known how to answer or she very well may not have even understood what he was saying (he isn't always clear and I didn't clarify). Maybe I am looking too much into this...but either way it set off my IF radar and taught me I need to add in a few more categories!!Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-66287793203017799592011-02-12T07:40:00.000-06:002011-02-12T07:40:00.120-06:0024 weeksHow far along? 16 weeks<br />Total weight gain: 8 pounds - Now that I am feeling better I am having no problems getting my calories in each day!!<br />Maternity clothes: I wear a few regular t-shirts under things and some of my regular sweats but besides that everything is maternity.<br />Sleep: I use my new body pillow about half the night for my back and get up 1 or 2 nights for potty breaks but overall it is pretty good.<br />Best moment this week: This one was actually about 2 weeks ago, but I can now see movement from the outside...I love to just lay on the bed and watch the show!<br />Food cravings: I wouldn't necessarily say "cravings" but as of a few weeks ago, the nausea disappeared and i LOVE eating again. My favorites are sweets...ice cream..cookies...etc. I also can't get enough fresh fruit!<br />Gender: A little boy!!<br />Labor Signs: No real labor (still WAY too early for that) but I do have the occasional "tightening" and it is usually a reminder that I need to drink more<br />Belly button: no change<br />What I miss: not really anything <br />What I am looking forward to: now that I can see movement and W can feel movement, I think the next time this little guy really gets going, I'm going to try to get JR. to feel it<br />Milestones: VIABILITY!!!Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-77200280375275850282011-02-11T07:24:00.002-06:002011-02-11T07:24:00.201-06:00Happy Birthday Babies!!One year ago today, was my IVF retrieval. They got 8 eggs, 7 were mature and all 7 of these fertilized.<br /><br />One year later..<br /><br />2 didn't make it "off the table" - they just couldn't keep up with their brothers and sisters. I'm sorry I couldn't give them the warm cushy home that the rest of them had or will have but know they are in a wonderful place now!<br /><br />3 are frozen waiting for me...i don't know when down the road I will see them again but I know I WILL see them again.<br /><br />1...my little Fred...was quite the overachiever. Despite the fact that we told him to just stay put and make himself comfortable...he went exploring...into my left fallopian tube. He tried and tried to hang on despite what the doctors did but eventually he was gone too. Amazing how much personality I have always pictured this little guy (or girl) with despite never being able to meet him. <br /><br />and 1 little baby...my little squirt...is currently about 12 inches long and showing me how strong his legs are. He is squirming and kicking as I write this. I can't wait to meet him in a few short months!!Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-44658392969319577422011-01-10T18:09:00.002-06:002011-01-10T18:14:27.191-06:00Why is this news??Did anyone else read this story??<br /><br />http://abcnews.go.com/Health/eleven-years-triplet-arrives-frozen-embryo-batch/story?id=12492208&page=1<br /><br />I'm always amazed at what the mainstream media decides is newsworthy when it comes to IF. Ok, so maybe people when frozen embryos normally don't wait 11 years but they made it sounds like triplets born years apart is CRAZY!! Ummm, no, it happens all the time with IVF. I'n only 30 and have 3 frozen embryos..while I don't intend to wait 10 years before trying again..I know that's an option..I'd only be 40 (with 29 year old embies). That is not crazy!<br /><br />Ok, done with my vent for the day!!Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-91819785332328461352010-12-18T08:13:00.000-06:002010-12-18T08:13:00.204-06:0016 weeks16 weeks <br />How far along? 16 weeks<br />Total weight gain: none<br />Maternity clothes: Pants are all maternity and shirts are about 50/50<br />Sleep: Getting better but still trying to teach myself to sleep on my side (I'm a stomach sleeper)<br />Best moment this week: I got our Christmas cards in the mail that we ordered...they are our big announcement!! I will be sending them out Monday after our 16 week appt.<br />Movement: yup - for a week weeks now...favorite part of my day<br />Food cravings: I wish i had a craving so that there was something I enjoyed eating but so far haven't found anything I like<br />Gender: don't know...but my gut is telling me another boy<br />Labor Signs: Nope<br />Belly button: no change<br />What I miss: not really anything <br />What I am looking forward to: announcing this pregnancy next week (I am showing enough that people we see on a regular basis know but we haven't made the BIG announcement) <br />Milestones: We reached the second trimester and are finally able to admit that this is happening!!Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-84776099296995183682010-12-17T08:04:00.003-06:002010-12-17T08:12:04.246-06:00Will I ever learn??Well I let it go too far..<br /><br />Five years ago, when we were TTC the first time around, I made a promise that if I was ever blessed with a pregnancy, I would NOT complain about being pregnant. When I was pregnant with Jr. I took that a little too seriously and unfortunately ended up with pretty severe pre-eclampsia because I neglected to tell my Dr. the symptoms, I was having. I just thought you were supposed to feel that crappy when you were 9 months pregnant and I didn't want to be the pregnant lady who complained.<br /><br />Well fast forward to now and nausea has become my worst enemy. I am almost 16 weeks and it has actually gotten MUCH worse in the second trimester instead of better. But I didn't complain, I didn't talk about it...I just quietly threw up and went about my day. I didn't want to be one of those "pregnant ladies" who couldn't handle the sickness and went on drugs that could potentially hurt their baby just so they didn't get sick. Well apparently I should have done something sooner becuase I have now earned myself a trip to the hospital to get hooked up to an IV becuase I am so dehydrated. My doctor has started me on Zofran and told me I HAD to take it every 8 hours until I go into the office again on MOnday, even if I don't think I need...they don't really trust me to decide if I "need" it or not.<br /><br />Once again I have let the issues I have felt while I watched other people pregnant affect the health and well-being of myself and more importantly this baby...will I ever learn my lesson??Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-83195259351711486502010-12-06T11:58:00.003-06:002010-12-06T12:12:11.086-06:00once an infertile, always an infertileok, I know I'm been off the radar, I've been using my computer time to keep up with your blogs but just haven't updated mine. The pregnancy seems to be going well. I had another OB appointment two weeks ago and heard the heartbeat for the first time. It was in the low 160s and the dr. instantly predicted girl but he did the same thing with my son so I definitely won't be going out to buy pink based on that. <br /><br />We told our parents around 9-10 weeks. They had already assumed we were pregnant since we hadn't told them the cycle didn't work but they did a good job of respecting our privacy and being patient for the announcement while we processed the news ourselves. Since my ob appointment was a couple of days before Thanksgiving we went ahead and told our families at Thanksgiving the news and will be announcing it to extended families and friends in our Christmas cards. <br /><br />So I was finally starting to feel like a normal pregnant person. I wasn't scared everytime I went to the bathroom that I was bleeding, I could actually talk about the baby as a definite occurence instead of saying, "if everything works out," and yes, I could let people congratulate me...but then there was Saturday.<br /><br />Saturday, we had a bunch of people at our house for a family birthday party. I have been so stressed out about this that I haven't been sleeping and the lack of sleep and stress have made my nausea worse. So you can imagine the fabulous mood I was already in, and then my sister announced her pregnancy. I should be happy, I should be thrilled..our babies will only be a couple of weeks apart...maybe even days...so why did I find myself upstairs in my room crying? <br /><br />Even though I'm pregnant, pregnancy announcements (especially surprise ones that I didn't see coming) are still hard for me. Is this what I will be dealing with the rest of my life? Will I always be jealous of people who get pregnant easily? Will I always walk into a family event or party and play "guess the pregnant lady" so I can be prepared before the announcement actually happens? I'm beginning to think the answer is yes.Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-1516598134616835142010-11-08T07:40:00.002-06:002010-11-08T07:46:55.077-06:0010 weeks<strong>How far along?</strong> 10 weeks 2 days<br /><strong>Total weight gain:</strong> If I consider my base weight what I weighed the day of my BFP instead of my pre-cycle weight then I still haven't gained any weight.<br /><strong>Maternity clothes:</strong> Wore my first skirt on Saturday and gradually getting everything else washed<br /><strong>Sleep:</strong> Getting better but still trying to teach myself to sleep on my side (I'm a stomach sleeper)<br /><strong>Best moment this week:</strong> energy is starting to return<br /><strong>Movement:</strong> not yet<br /><strong>Food cravings:</strong> I wish i had a craving so that there was something I enjoyed eating but so far haven't found anything I like<br /><strong>Gender:</strong> don't know...but my body is changing VERY differently than it did with my boy so girl?? or hormones??<br /><strong>Labor Signs:</strong> Nope<br /><strong>Belly button:</strong> no change<br /><strong>What I miss:</strong> coke zero<br /><strong>What I am looking forward to:</strong> hearing the heartbeat soon <br /><strong>Milestones:</strong> Placenta is starting to take over and we are done with PIO shotsBethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-65276337198427575342010-11-06T07:29:00.002-05:002010-11-08T07:36:40.950-06:00A week to rememberThis week marked the due date of "Fred," our little embryo from IVF #1 who we lost to an ectopic. I have wondered for the last several months how I would feel as this day approached. I expected it to be hard. i expected to focus on what I had lost...but instead I found myself focusing on what I had. I will always wonder about what could have been, was it a boy or a girl? Would he/she have looked like Jr. But at the same time, if I was holding that baby in my arms today, I wouldn't have the baby growing inside me right now. This baby is the one I will feel kick inside of me. This baby is the one that is supposed to come home with us. This baby is the one that I am supposed to hold in my arms. This is the baby I will watch grow up.Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-19437724855528382842010-11-01T07:21:00.002-05:002010-11-08T07:29:37.514-06:00The 3 week waitYup..the dreaded 3ww...until my next appointment. I had my first OB appointment on Thursday. Everything went great and we saw the baby and the heartbeat again. Our doctor has a little US machine in the exam room that he uses for each appointment during the first trimester and only charges you for the big nice ultrasond if there is a problem. The downside of this is the machine isn't great so it is hard to see a good picture but I've found that I'm so used to ultrasounds now that I can see them much better than I could when I was pregnant with Jr. The rest of the appointment was pretty uneventful...since this is my second pregnancy with them they already have all the family information, know I don't have any crazy bad habits, etc. So we just updated information, took blood and got my initial weight. <br />But the bad news is now that I am officially an OB patient means I am on a normal schedule...appointment every 4 weeks instead of every week :(. The good news for me was that 4 weeks from my appointment was Thanksgiving so I was able to move it up to the Monday of that week so I only have to wait 3 and a half weeks for that appointment.<br />There was a little "incident" on the way home but I'll save that for its own post!Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-41237786711870075722010-10-21T08:28:00.002-05:002010-10-21T08:28:00.317-05:00Baby StepsSo I'm making baby steps towards acceptance that this might actually be the real thing.<br />You may remember that after my ectopic, I was lucky enough to lose several pounds. As soon as I got off the hormones and got some energy the weight just melted off. As a result, I was down to an 8 and almost a 6. During my cancelled FET and subsequent surgery, I gained a few of the pounds back and ended up firmly in the 8s. <br />I was still in my 8s throughout the Lupron and estrogen but within a week after my transfer, I was so bloated, I had no choice but to go back to the 10s which is where I still am today. I don't need maternity clothes yet but I know I won't see those 8s for awhile. So tonight, I packed them all up. While I was at it, I packed up the 10 capris and shorts. Afterall, I'm going to need some room in the closet and dresser.<br />So it's a baby step...if I make a couple of these everyday, soon I will reach acceptance and can begin to get excited.Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-22407385926005281892010-10-20T12:42:00.002-05:002010-10-20T12:53:48.498-05:00Graduated!!Do you hear pomp and circumstance playing in the background??<br /><br />So today was my last RE appointment. I was supposed to have my ultrasound and bloodwork this morning but Monday night I ended up having some bleeding. It wasn't much but was on my underwear and was definitely red. Becuase of the spotting they had me come in Tuesday morning for the ultrasound and get my progesterone checked again (last week it was only 10.5). The good news is the ultrasound went great. I was still measuring right on track and the hb had gone up to 145 bpm. My progesterone was the highest it's been at 16.5! The bad news is that they have no cause for the bleeding so they said just to take it easy and call if it happened again.<br /><br />So this morning's appointment just consisted of hugs and congratulations. They made me promise to send pictures and bring the baby in to meet everyone. I got my medicine weaning instructions and was told that as long as I don't have any more bleeding I can lift all restrictions (lifting, sex, etc.) at 9 weeks. <br /><br />I think the appointment was really good for me. I've had such a hard time accepting that this could actually happen that having my doctor, nurses, and even the receptionist congratulating me and sending me off was really a confidence booster for me. I'm hoping this is the confidence I need to tell a few more people. Thus far, have told a few close friends who have been through this with me step by step but we haven't told our parents or siblings. <br /><br />So this is a huge step...crazy to think that I am just a few days away from being 8 weeks pregnant! Next step...my first ob appointment is a week from Thursday.Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-4574838794318377522010-10-19T15:32:00.002-05:002010-10-19T15:39:27.469-05:00Can she make us look worse??I was scanning the headlines today when I saw one that said, "Nadya Suleman Still has 29 Frozen Embryos"<br />WHATTT??? I thought the whole reason she put so many in was becuase she was using up all her frozen embryos. Nope, not the case. She apparently didn't plan on some of these details coming out but that is what is happening since her doctor is having to go in front of the medical board. I guess she has never used her frozen embryos and does a fresh cycle each time.<br />Now I am not going to go into a moral argument here. While I personally believe in using up our embryos before doing another cycle, it is her decision BUT the more she is in the news, the more people think we are ALL like her.<br />In all my reading of fertility blogs, I'm not sure I have ever read of anyone having over 20 frozen embryos...most of us who are lucky enough to have frozen embryos probably have less than 5. And we don't have 14 children. Unfprtuantely though, Nadya Suleman is the current face of IVF and it is making us all look very very bad.<br /><br /><br />Sorry I just needed to vent...<br />Oh and don't even get me started on the transfer of 12 embryos...Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-51197537726083020682010-10-13T15:12:00.002-05:002010-10-13T15:19:13.399-05:00We have a heartbeat!!Today's ultrasound went well. Heartbeat was measuring at 118 bpm and everything looked good.<br />The baby is measuring at 6w 3 days which I of course freaked out about since last week the measurement was 5 w 5 days but the ultrasound tech assured me that it was fine and 1) I was still ahead of where they say I should be 6 w 2 d and 2) last week they measured the sac and this week the baby so the measurements were based on two different things. <br />They took my progesterone again since I had dipped a little low last week but since I didn't go in until noon they won't have those results until tomorrow. <br />So I go in for one more ultrasound and my exit appt. next Wednesday. They told me to go ahead and make an appointment with my OB for the week after that. Since my OB does ultrasounds on the first visit that means I will get to see this little baby the next two weeks to make sure everything is still going ok. <br />Can't believe we have made it this far...Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-72680818506634342322010-10-13T07:48:00.003-05:002010-10-13T07:57:52.137-05:004 more hours...until our next ultrasound! And we should hopefully see a heartbeat today!!<br /><br />We had an ultrasound last Wednesday and everything was looking good. They told me I should be 5 weeks 2 days, I figured I was 5 weeks 4 days but the ultrasound measured 5 weeks 5 days so either way we were ahead of the game :) According to my dating, I should be 6 weeks 4 days today. My progresterone is still borderline to where it should be so they will be checking that today and hopefully it will have gone up so we can stop the bloodwork.<br /><br />Sorry I didn't update sooner but between the extreme exhaustion and Jr. not napping well, I'm not getting much computer time lately. I am starting to get some bouts of nausea, especially late in the afternoon and around dinner. This was exactly the time I had it with Jr. I'm trying to remember to eat more in the morning and at lunch to keep my stomach fuller and then it doesn't affect me as much. But then of course if I don't feel as sick, I freak out that the symptom is gone. <br /><br />So, hopefully, I can stay sane the next few hours. Jr. has a class and I'm hoping to run some errands so we aren't sitting around the house watching the minutes tick by on the clock...Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-3047531567367113082010-09-30T08:45:00.002-05:002010-09-30T08:49:20.306-05:00beta #2624!!<br /><br />Since the two tests were only 44 hours apart (instead of 48) that means my doubling time was just over 38 hours...not too bad :)<br /><br />Unfortunately, I did have some clotty bleeding on Monday night. I called Tuesday morning and they said not to worry about it too much since it had stopped. I haven't had any since then and am trying to stay reassured that that my numbers still did what I wanted them to do even with the bleeding.<br /><br />Since I had a good test, I don't get to go back for a week :( I'll have an ultrasound and more bloodwork on Wednesday...better start figuring out ways to keep myself busy!!Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-4676439125990662492010-09-27T19:14:00.002-05:002010-09-27T19:26:09.152-05:00cautiously optimisticIt's official...I'm pregnant!!<br /><br />My beta wasn't scheduled until Thursday and I knew there was no way I would hold off testing until then. I debated about testing last Friday but we were headed out of town for the weekend and I wanted to live in blissful ignorance and enjoy our little mini-vaca. So about a week ago, I decided today would be the day. I didn't buy any tests until last night to keep myself from cheating earlier and I must have woken up 10 times overnight. By about 3, I had to pee but wouldn't let myself get up and go so I had the best "morning sample." <br /><br />I took the test about 7:30 this morning and it instantly turned postive (used a FRER). The test line was at least as dark as the control line maybe darker. The phone lines at the RE don't open for non-emergencies until 9 so I called then and asked if I could move up my beta to tomorrow. They asked me if I wanted to come in today but Jr. had a class until a little after 10 and I knew 10:30 is the cut-off time. They told me they would hold off pickup until 11 if I wanted to come by so I jumped on the offer and had my beta this morning.<br /><br />After anxiously waiting all afternoon, I got my first number...284!!! I got the official congratulations and even a congratulatory e-mail from our doctor. I go back on Wednesday for the next number...praying we get another good one...I don't know how I can go through what we did in March again. <br /><br />So for now, we are cautiously optimistic. With the ectopic back in March, it took me 2 weeks to get a number this high, but I know we still have a long way to go.<br /><br />Thanks to everyone for that happy thoughts and prayers during this 2ww!!Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-80966203680863244632010-09-16T19:24:00.002-05:002010-09-16T19:29:33.275-05:00PUPOI am officially pregnany until proven otherwise!!<br /><br />This morning we transferred one of our frozen babies. The thaw went well so they only had to thaw one which means we still have 3 left.<br />The decision to do one was pretty easy after our last transfer. I did technically get pregnant from that even if it was an ectopic so we think we have a great chance with 1. If not, we will do 2 next time.<br /><br />For now, I am chilling out and watching TV and movies. So far I watched the Back-up Plan (good post transfer movie don't you think) and now I'm watching the 19th wife that I recorded earlier in the week.<br /><br />Oh and I also watched As the World Turns becuase it is ending this week!! I grew up on that show!! After I gave up naps when I was 3 my mom let me have "quiet" time on the couch after lunch and we watched As the World Turns. As soon as I went to school I would come home and ask her what I missed...crazy, I know. I watched it in summers through college and here and there afterwards but hadn't watched it in probably 4 years. So the scary thing is...after watching it today...I wasn't lost at all! There is the world of soaps for you!Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-42560594462415306552010-09-14T20:58:00.003-05:002010-09-14T21:02:56.197-05:00Less than 36 hours......until our transfer. So yes, the last i posted we were trying the day 21 Lupron start to hope that we could still do a September cycle. We tried that and it worked!! We could have done the transfer as early as last week but we decided to squeeze in one more vacation for the year and head to Florida!! We got to see the new Harry Potter stuff at Universal and just spend some time relaxing. One HUGE negative about the trip...Lupron hot flashes on the beach are NO fun.<br /><br />We added in the Estrogen on Aug. 28 and quit the Lupron and started my PIO shots on Saturday! I've been in for acu and adjustments a couple of times and go once more tomorrow night.<br /><br />So now I am ready. I'm still a little unsure that this will actually happen after our cancelled July transfer but I'm trying to stay confidant.<br /><br />Wish me luck!!Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-91556517592636897002010-08-09T20:13:00.002-05:002010-08-09T20:17:24.630-05:00Day 21 Lupron StartAF still hasn't arrived so we are moving on to Plan B. I e-mailed my nurse coordinator Friday to see if there was anyway a September transfer was still possible and she suggested a Day 21 Lupron Start. This still isn't a for sure thing, but it was the only possibility we had left. I went in for an ultrasound and bloodwork this morning to verify that I have already ovulated and will start Lupron tonight. If AF comes in time ( I'm still waiting to find out what that date is) we can still do a September transfer, if it doesn't, then we will do an October transfer instead. Either way, I'm back on Lupron tonight...can't wait to see what drug induced tantrums I throw this time...Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-2514855206529674932010-08-05T11:16:00.003-05:002010-08-05T14:31:28.745-05:00a confessionI have a confession to make...I watch Teen Mom.<br />I'm not sure which show bugs me more...Teen Mom or 16 and Pregnant...but since I set the DVR to only record new episodes it is Teen Mom that I am currently watching.<br /><br />There is a part of me that wants to rant and rave about how unfair it is that these girls were able to get pregnant so easily but really, I'm not jealous, I pity them. If I could trade getting pregnant easily for their lives there is NO way I would make that trade. Sometimes I need to remind myself about the good things in life instead of focusing on this one hardship of infertility. So instead of listing all the negative things I think about while watching this show, instead I am going to list 10 reasons (in no particular order) why I love my life and don't want to trade!!<br /><br />1) I have a fabulous husband who is supportive or me and loves me unconditionally.<br /><br />2) I have a beautiful little boy who loves to give me kisses, hugs and cuddles.<br /><br />3) I was able to make education a priority and now have a bachelors and masters degree.<br /><br />4) I am one of the lucky ones to be financially stable enough to stay home with my son<br /><br />5) I have loving and supportive parents who have always been there for me<br /><br />6) I have a roof over my head and know where I will be sleeping every night<br /><br />7) My husband and I are financially independent and debt free (except for our mortgage)<br /><br />8) I was able to enjoy my childhood and early adulthood. I used this time to learn who I am and want I want out of life.<br /><br />9) I have fabulous friends who are always there for me and many of them have been there for 15-20 years already.<br /><br />10) I am healthy and my family is healthy. Yes, I have this whole infertility thing but it is not endangering my life. Overall, I am a healthy person.<br /><br /><br />As a disclaimer, I am not telling any of you that you shouldn't complain about the show or your own infertility problems...this list was for me...a reminder for me of what I should be thankful for!!Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-43033630535234649892010-08-04T11:30:00.000-05:002010-08-04T11:34:11.081-05:00over underOver the past year, we have realized that there is one word that Dr. RE use a LOT!! He uses it so much that W and I have started making bets on how many times during each visit he will use the word.<br />So are you curious?? Do you want to know what the word is??<br />Well it's<br />...<br />...<br />..<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />...<br />..<br />....<br />...<br />..<br />PENETRATION<br /><br />Yup - you would think that once you have moved on to IUIs and especially IVF that you wouldn't need to use the word penetration with your Dr., and yet he manages to use it every time...multiple times...<br /><br />It gives us something to laugh about when we get home...and you know...isn't that what we all need when we leave that office...something to smile and laugh about :)Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5318549041357339547.post-44287830939585752722010-08-03T22:11:00.003-05:002010-08-03T22:18:09.021-05:00one year ago today....(second post of day)One year ago today, we went in for our first consult with Dr. RE. <br />The initial meeting went well. He thought we were a pretty easy case and told us as much. Afterall, I was 29, had gotten pregnant with little intervention before, responded to Clomid well, and didn't have any obvious problems...he seemed extremely confidant that I would be pregnant in less than three months...<br /><br />So for fun, I went through our insurance records to see what we did in this past year. (The scary party is as high as these numbers are...I even took a 3 month break.) <br /><br />36 Blood draws (most of these took 2-3 sticks to find the vein)<br />17 regular vaginal ultrasounds<br />2 saline ultrasounds<br />7 IUIs (over 4 cycles)<br />2 doses of methotrexate<br />1 IVF retrieval<br />1 IVF transfer<br />1 lap surgery<br />5 Dr. Consults (not counting times we were in the office for other reasons)<br />1 ectopic pregnancy<br /><br />I wonder what the next year will hold...Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16825847429838977694noreply@blogger.com0