Day 21 Lupron Start

AF still hasn't arrived so we are moving on to Plan B. I e-mailed my nurse coordinator Friday to see if there was anyway a September transfer was still possible and she suggested a Day 21 Lupron Start. This still isn't a for sure thing, but it was the only possibility we had left. I went in for an ultrasound and bloodwork this morning to verify that I have already ovulated and will start Lupron tonight. If AF comes in time ( I'm still waiting to find out what that date is) we can still do a September transfer, if it doesn't, then we will do an October transfer instead. Either way, I'm back on Lupron tonight...can't wait to see what drug induced tantrums I throw this time...

a confession

I have a confession to make...I watch Teen Mom.
I'm not sure which show bugs me more...Teen Mom or 16 and Pregnant...but since I set the DVR to only record new episodes it is Teen Mom that I am currently watching.

There is a part of me that wants to rant and rave about how unfair it is that these girls were able to get pregnant so easily but really, I'm not jealous, I pity them. If I could trade getting pregnant easily for their lives there is NO way I would make that trade. Sometimes I need to remind myself about the good things in life instead of focusing on this one hardship of infertility. So instead of listing all the negative things I think about while watching this show, instead I am going to list 10 reasons (in no particular order) why I love my life and don't want to trade!!

1) I have a fabulous husband who is supportive or me and loves me unconditionally.

2) I have a beautiful little boy who loves to give me kisses, hugs and cuddles.

3) I was able to make education a priority and now have a bachelors and masters degree.

4) I am one of the lucky ones to be financially stable enough to stay home with my son

5) I have loving and supportive parents who have always been there for me

6) I have a roof over my head and know where I will be sleeping every night

7) My husband and I are financially independent and debt free (except for our mortgage)

8) I was able to enjoy my childhood and early adulthood. I used this time to learn who I am and want I want out of life.

9) I have fabulous friends who are always there for me and many of them have been there for 15-20 years already.

10) I am healthy and my family is healthy. Yes, I have this whole infertility thing but it is not endangering my life. Overall, I am a healthy person.


As a disclaimer, I am not telling any of you that you shouldn't complain about the show or your own infertility problems...this list was for me...a reminder for me of what I should be thankful for!!

over under

Over the past year, we have realized that there is one word that Dr. RE use a LOT!! He uses it so much that W and I have started making bets on how many times during each visit he will use the word.
So are you curious?? Do you want to know what the word is??
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PENETRATION

Yup - you would think that once you have moved on to IUIs and especially IVF that you wouldn't need to use the word penetration with your Dr., and yet he manages to use it every time...multiple times...

It gives us something to laugh about when we get home...and you know...isn't that what we all need when we leave that office...something to smile and laugh about :)

one year ago today....(second post of day)

One year ago today, we went in for our first consult with Dr. RE.
The initial meeting went well. He thought we were a pretty easy case and told us as much. Afterall, I was 29, had gotten pregnant with little intervention before, responded to Clomid well, and didn't have any obvious problems...he seemed extremely confidant that I would be pregnant in less than three months...

So for fun, I went through our insurance records to see what we did in this past year. (The scary party is as high as these numbers are...I even took a 3 month break.)

36 Blood draws (most of these took 2-3 sticks to find the vein)
17 regular vaginal ultrasounds
2 saline ultrasounds
7 IUIs (over 4 cycles)
2 doses of methotrexate
1 IVF retrieval
1 IVF transfer
1 lap surgery
5 Dr. Consults (not counting times we were in the office for other reasons)
1 ectopic pregnancy

I wonder what the next year will hold...

Waiting...

We are in a holding pattern.

Last week we met with Dr. RE to discuss how the discovery of endometriosis might change any upcoming cycles. Dr. OB mentioned that Dr. RE might want to treat the endo with Lupron for 6 months before proceeding with anything. When we met with Dr. RE he was very optimistic. He explained how the discovery of the endo and where it was gives a very probable explanation as to why the natural cycles and IUIs didn't work. But as of now since we have already moved to IVF, he felt we didn't need to treat it for now. His exact words were "Pregnancy is the best thing you can do for endo so let's get you pregnant!"

He said we can start again as soon as we are ready. So now we are just anxiously awaiting my period so that we can get going again. If it comes within the next week we will still have time to do a September transfer but if it comes after that we will have to wait for October. Either is fine with us, but I am anxious to get going again...