Beta #1

11.9

So as the nurse said..."techinically" I'm pregnant but it's more than likely either an eptopic or on it's way out. I have to go back in on Monday to see where things are.

I feel like this is a really hard place to be...the results aren't looking good at all for this to be a viable pregnancy but neither do I have closure to put this cycle behind me and move on. The fact that on Wednesday I thought I had no chance and starting the mourning process really helps - I already thought this was a lost cause.

However, I am trying to look at the positive side of all of this that I obviously made it farther than I thought I did...maybe my body wasn't "quite" ready for this pregnancy but in another month or two it will be all set!

I did make W stop on the way home tonight to buy more pregnancy tests so I can analyze lines or lack thereof all weekend...I really think reading pregnancy tests should be an Olympic sport :)