Two weeks!!

So as of today I'm entering the two week wait...not the normal two week wait...but two weeks from today is my FET!! I am feeling so positive about this cycle!! For the first time since we started TTC over two years ago, I am thinking that this might actually happen!!

Saturday, I lowered my dose of Lupron and started the Estrogen patches and baby aspirin. I go back for another ultrasound and more bloodwork on Friday!!

We are really on our way!!!

Baseline Ultrasound

I had my baseline US and labs this morning. It was the first time I've been back to the RE since my last beta a couple of months ago. I can't say I missed it.
The good news is that is looks like the Lupron is doing it's job and everything is quiet. Assuming my bloodwork all comes back normal, I will be starting the estrogen patches and baby aspirin on Saturday.
Another good news tidbit...I haven't cried for two days!! Well except for during Toy Story 3 (I can't believe how attached I am to Andy and his toys) but W claims I would have cried then without the Lupron. I'm hoping my body is starting to adjust and maybe the mood swings will subside...or else they will get worse when I add in the estrogen :)

Welcome ICLW

Welcome ICLWers! This is my second time participating and I am very excited - I can't wait to meet new people and find some great new blogs to add to my list. If you are visiting my blog for the first time, you will find that I pretty much only write about our infertility. I have an IRL blog that talks about our life, our son, etc. and frankly I don't have time to write about it twice. This is an anonymous blog...that isn't becuase of you. I'm not worried about you finding out who I am, I am worried about people IRL finding out about the blog. I started this blog becuase I felt like most people IRL didn't want to hear what I really was thinking or feeling. If they hurt my feelings or make me mad, I want to be able to write about it without fearing they may find it.

If this is your first time here, my husband (W) and I are trying to get pregnant with our second child. We had our son (Jr.) in 2007 with the help of Clomid and began trying again in June of 2008. So far we have done 5 natural cycles with Clomid, 3 Clomid IUIs, 1 Clomid/Follistim IUI and 1 IVF. I did get pregnant from the IVF however we found out at 6 weeks that it was an ectopic pregnancy in my left tube. Becuase of the Methotrexate used for the ectopic...we had to take a 3 month break from TTC. It was great to take a break from the drugs, the appointments and the stress, but we are at it again. I started Lupron for my FET about a week ago and we are scheduled to transfer on July 13.

I hope you stick around and read some of our journey...

The evils of Lupron

So I started back on the Lupron last Saturday...Unfortunately, I have spent most of the week crying, depressed or screaming at my husband. At least we both know that it is the drugs and not me...but that really doesn't make it easier. I have been so happy and felt great for the past few months that I think it is fitting me even harder this time...wish me luck!!

2 year anniversary

Two years ago today was cycle day 1 of our first cycle trying to conceive our second child. We started this process unbelievably hopefull. Afterall, we had figured it out. Yes, we needed intervention the first time around, but we felt like we now knew what worked and this was going to be a relatively easy process.

Since then...

Countless "timed" cycles
5 Clomid "natural cycles
3 Clomid IUI cycles
1 Clomid/injectible IUI cycle
1 fresh IVF
1 ectopic pregnancy

and WAY too many ultrasounds, blood draws and injections!!

However, through it all, I am still optimistic. Maybe not as much as I was two years ago...and maybe more than I was a year ago...but it is there...